Musings of a (LDS) Convert

thegardenofenid:

Enid vs. The #ldsconf Drowsies

9/30/2014

First General Conference as a member coming up! :D

thegardenofenid:

Enid vs. The #ldsconf Drowsies

9/30/2014

First General Conference as a member coming up! :D

Okay it’s one thing when porn blogs follow my fitness blog but why the heck would a porn blog follow this one.

Anonymous asked: “As we do the best we can in each area of our lives, we are, He. Jesus said, to “continue in patience until ye are perfected.” (D&C 67:13.) So if God does not reject nor condemn us for having unconquered weaknesses as we work out our salvation, if he is willing to wait patiently for our growth toward the ideals, what right do we have to condemn or despise ourselves while we are in the process of learning to overcome them?”— In the Arms of His Love - Steven Cramer

I’ve been leaving this in my inbox for a couple days because it’s just so perfect. Thank you.

Yesterday at church was the highlight of my week.

I became sustained and set apart in my new calling (Ward Missionary!!)
The testimonies were amazing.
I cried in Relief Society. Twice.
I told the sisters about my depression and the Bishop’s wife pulled me aside to let me know she was there to talk if I wanted it.
I received my referral for my patriarchal blessing.
I got asked to speak at church in 3 weeks.
I am now in the family history class because that’s going to be what I teach people about as a missionary.

After one of the worst weeks in living memory, yesterday was absolutely amazing. I am so blessed to have the church in my life.

Anonymous asked: Welcome to the guilt factory. It never changes and only adds upon. No matter how good you are it is never good enough, once you realize it, then you realize how to become free and rid your self of anxiety and guilt. It is not you, it is the precepts being pushed on you that are at fault.

Yeah no. The idea of continual self improvement does not have to be guilt based - that is a fault of people, not the church.
I was in a very dark headspace last night, as I am clinically, chronically depressed but that is not a reflection of the Church. The Church is helping me with my depression, it is not the cause of it.

I don’t deserve to be a member.